i had been stressed senseless for almost 10 months since June last year.

now that school's out, i terribly miss all the action--getting up before sunrise to get ready for work, rushing to UP after work, studying [while hanging out, smoking, having coffee, sleeping. yes, it's doable.] after classes until it's time to get ready for work again.

although, i still have my job and i do not think i am missing malcolm just yet, ay em jas rili bord.

first and foremost and that which has been madly bothering me since last month, I AM BROKE.

so, here's a violent virtual headshake to not-free out-of-town/country trips, holiday sales, grand reunions, retail therapy and Dutch dates.

hang out at home, you say.

my TV has given up, my PC has not been fixed [and remember, i'm broke. so i can't do anything about that.] and i live alone.

i work the afternoon shift, i get home an hour before midnight, and i have trouble sleeping. i wake up really early in the morning if for some cosmic reason i get to sleep, i move furniture until lunchtime, get something cheap to eat, and head to work.

in fact, i think i spend most of the day doing head calcs of my daily expenses.

if i'm lucky, i hear of some free event that's happening on the weekend, and that would be the most activity i'd have had the whole week. haha.

so, this is an emergency shout-out to all those who know of FREE events, dinners, what-have-yous that i can maybe check out or crash. SERIOUSLY. i was fatally busy for the last 10 months, and i have to make the most out of this vacation. haha.

some short-time freelance job would probably help, too. c;

it sucks, really. what having all this free time does to me is make me think of all the things i don't have. and it depresses me shitless. and when i'm depressed shitless, i become all emo and literary and musical. haha. gamit na gamit na lahat ng notebook sa bahay.
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you break my heart like it's what you've been raised to do.

the sequel to the first reaction by chovanchorvalyn.

and an extended definition of the domesticated gwapo by kurkeh.

ang galing! c;

MAYA
The simple translation for maya is "illusion." When we go further, we find that maya refers to "material existence." But this doesn't mean to imply that material existence is an illusion. An excellent explanation of this is found in "The Tao of Physics" by Fritjof Capra. He says: "Maya does not mean that the world is an illusion, as is often wrongly stated. The illusion merely lies in our point of view. Maya is the illusion of mistaking our relative perspective for reality, of confusing the map with the territory." The philosophy behind all of this is that the material world exists, yet it is temporary. When we see it as permanent, then we are mistaken. Material things are measurable, they take place in space and time. What is permanent is the spiritual, which takes place beyond space and time. The spiritual is limitless, boundless, full of infinite potential. This is the true reality.

vain, i know. but it was too fantastic to pass up. haha.
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my use of the operator "define:" is actually a Google search feature that can be typed in along with the word you're looking up to show you a list of definitions and references gathered from various online sources.

try it. c:
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"For want of a nail, the horseshoe was lost.
For want of a horseshoe, the steed was lost.
For want of a steed, the message was not delivered.
For want of an undelivered message, the war was lost."

-"The Fast and The Furious: Tokyo Drift"

pongky! c;

happy birthday, love.

can't wait.